Thought Disorder

Friday, August 29, 2008

Hahaha today was UNBELIEVABLE. Initially I wanted to visit the doctor about my screwed ears, and since I didn't have an outfit in mind, all the more I should skip celebrations and just get an MC. Of course my mom strongly objected to this kind of 'ponning', so I went to school in the end and yada yada, but it was all fun, especially when we painted each other's faces, and walked around school while being stared at. The weirdest thing is that 22 (us) actually emerged champion for being the best dressed class. Funny!!! No kimonos or such, and just super random clothing like eh black outfits and soccer jerseys for some? It was shocking. We had no idea how we won. But I think if all of us were dressed in kimonos, we'll really pwnz everyone for real. Renting/buying one is expensive! But still, our geisha idea owned (how, I really have no idea)

I love Shi Ning's look!!! (: It's creepy. Oh and Zhiqian looks scary here!

Aw and I had a bad fall down the stairs today. F pain I can feel it while I walk or fidget in my chair. That's how bad it is, I hope salon pas is the way to go, and it's time to mug for PROMOS but i've so much CSC homework feel like murdering the teachers. running two themes at the same time is a bad bad bad idea. Die die DIE. Oh btw chem test was bad too. Boo.

9:33 PM

Monday, August 25, 2008

K I shouldn't be doing this.

Monday, 1:04AM and I'm still awake after watching Yang Jia Jiang on Ch8. I think I'm too affected by the drama, but I must admit it's one of the best I've ever watched! Big time. Because I think the climax of the entire show has somewhat arrived (these 2 weeks) and being the perpetual anxious one to know the ending, I'm still awake and searching for ending reads to calm my soul. And the ending is really an unfortunate one, I guess. I've heard it from many people that the ending is not ideal, but the show's really fabulous, serious. Must get the disc to collect soon! So that I can re-watch after promos end. :D It's such a good show.

I can't sleep because of the unintentional double dosage of tea & coffee I just had at 9PM just now. Imagine the amount of caffeine coursing through my blood! Plus the anxiety after watching the show. ): The need to finish watching everything at one go beckons! But I can't. I must overcome this temptation! I'm way affected by such a lame thing hor pls I'm damn no life.

Oh BTW I've CSC test tomorrow (Tues) and am still status quo having spent my Saturday resting due to the sudden sickness and watching Olympics at the same time, and spent my Sunday doing PW, going for tuition and then watching the closing ceremony + Yang Jia Jiang. I must stop this slackness soon!

Besides, the closing ceremony is once every 4 years but tests are once a week. So it's actually more worthwhile to watch the closing ceremony instead of mugging! GO ME

1:03 AM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

These few weeks felt so aimless but fast. There is an increasing number of 'things-to-do' in my list and I can't finish them all. I no longer meet deadlines, I feel unprepared for everything everyday. Just heading to school on a test day feeling unprepared, or going into tutorials with absolutely no idea what's happening. There is just too many things to handle at one go. I swear I'll keep my life boring after this year ends. (But it's boring in the first place, so probably less boring) When term 3 ends, full-force mugging I'll go.

That aside, there's much-dreaded econs test on Thursday. Fffff screwed! ): ): And may luck shine on me for tomorrow's tennis competition - I may win something if I get really lucky and emerge victorious! That is, if I'm lucky.

10:31 PM

Friday, August 15, 2008

OK these few days have been intense. For a reason everyone knows and I know (gotta admit it yo) But what's done cannot be undone, and I'm so glad that my friends are always there for me to console (hate this word but it's appropriate) me and encourage me. I'm truly feeling neutral about it and it doesn't affect me anymore. Felt like a good Xperience. Also, I'm desperately thinking hard about how to finish all my overdue work soon and stop missing deadlines. Pray like hell that I survive Saturday's full-day mugging session at home. I've suddenly lost the fighting spirit that kept propelling me forward (into a bed of knives) from the first half of the year. You mean term 3 is gonna end in just 2 weeks' time? Promos are in 6 +/- weeks? Okay, am I imagining things or what? As we near promos, CCA activities get more and more hectic and varied and they pile up, ironically. I think the only thing that keeps us through the days and weeks is the nice thought of having finishing the A levels...we'll just burn our books or something? Already, we're thinking of what we're gonna do after A levels, eg be a tuition teacher/relief teacher and earn lots of money, be a cashier (??) etc. Sad to say that such freedom can only be enjoyed 1 over year later. It will be all worth it wouldn't it - finally ending 12 years of sluggish formal schooling, and ending the most crazy, hellish and hectic 2 years of our lives.

Far, far away dream.

12:27 AM

Sunday, August 03, 2008

My head's crashing!

The past week was so crazy, but eventually I survived it. (I knew it) It's only a freaking supplementary part of my life. So what if I did badly or so what if I scored well? I'll just be momentarily sad/happy. Other than that, nothing matters.

It's such a competitive world. I will watch TV! And dream of drinking caramel frappe (:

Anyway, fund-raising is so near that I can count the days with my fingers.

9:29 PM

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Felicia studied in Dunman High School, loves elmo, is a major drama addict and is a cake lover. She has quit coffee even though she loves it.